Restarting My Life, Restarting My Blog
I did something I never imagined myself doing: Applied for a Rest from my Masters course. This would cause me to graduate in 2020, rather than 2019. I did this due to personal circumstances*, which I think contributed to me not feeling inspired enough to give my MA project the oomph it needed. I was generally just unhappy and unmotivated with any work I was producing. Rather than carry on torturing myself, I needed to do something...
It's been a few weeks now, and what's become clear to me is this:
"Don't Get Bitter..."
Something had been eating at me this year, I could never put my finger on it. I just knew I had to stop anything causing me stress in order to figure it out. As I applied for the Rest, I immediately felt something lift off my chest, so I knew that it was a good sign.It's been a few weeks now, and what's become clear to me is this:
- Look into/recall my own past, my upbringing, my childhood
- Explore/create more art, preferably themes related to me or my MA course, including & not limited to: Comics, Augmented Reality, personal experience of the Tube
You can follow my research into the Tube experience and my experiments with comics & augmented reality so far, here: https://creaturetube.wordpress.com (that blog will be updated for my Uni project later on). And thank you to all the friends who helped me with the photos of random people on the Tube! :))) Leah, Kevin, Obi, Jodie, Kurt, Marshall, sending virtual hugs out again x
[*Long story short: Following my mother's sudden death last year, I have been in and out of depression, deep anxiety, even anguish. Been in psychotherapy, counselling, back in psychotherapy again. Eventually, started doing new things with the local community, like volunteering and creative workshops. Met new people with similar interests (Bonus Stage: Also met people who had gone/are going through similar trauma). I moved house for the 3rd time in 2 years, this time much closer to friends & family. Then finally, been granted Rest from my Masters course. No, I don't feel completely healed, I don't think that's possible, but I feel a lot better compared to last year. Hey, it was hard typing this here, so whoever is reading right now, uh, just thanks, I guess, for, uh, reading!?]
"...Get Better"
Slowly, I have started to create more again. Following my second, although much harder round of Inktober (check my attempt on Instagram). I'm currently finishing a small book project with friends Elizabeth & Phuong and indie publisher Millevox (details soon!). And a couple weeks a go, I launched my very first printables - a set of cute bird-themed Xmas cards, available to download free via Gumroad.
This is all I have to say for now, really. And it feels good saying all of that here. I should do more of it! Watch this space, hopefully. :)
[*Long story short: Following my mother's sudden death last year, I have been in and out of depression, deep anxiety, even anguish. Been in psychotherapy, counselling, back in psychotherapy again. Eventually, started doing new things with the local community, like volunteering and creative workshops. Met new people with similar interests (Bonus Stage: Also met people who had gone/are going through similar trauma). I moved house for the 3rd time in 2 years, this time much closer to friends & family. Then finally, been granted Rest from my Masters course. No, I don't feel completely healed, I don't think that's possible, but I feel a lot better compared to last year. Hey, it was hard typing this here, so whoever is reading right now, uh, just thanks, I guess, for, uh, reading!?]
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